My love, I love you, I visited you today but I think you already know that. Finally there is top soil put down and seed. I added more seeds so you will have beautiful grass. Tomorrow I will plant your garden and put your little fence up, just like we did Sally's, remember honey? We re-planted Sally's garden last week but your top soil wasn't put down yet so of course I called Resurrection and now its done, so I will get to work tomorrow. I feel you have been far away lately, please come visit me again and stay close by me, unless you are watching the ponies in heaven and if so, have a great time. I love you so! Do you see me trying to get better? I try but I keep failing, I need you so much. I can't wait for a hug from you, I miss your hugs so much and your kiss. Visit me in my dreams and lay next to me, I love you my love and will for all eternity when we are together again, what a day that will be. Love you, goodnight honey, your loving wife, Anita