My love it is 5 months since you went to heaven. I will never stop loving you. I love you every day and all day. I love you every night, every night. You are in my prayers always my love and I do feel you close to me. Only you really know what I am dealing with now and I am not sure what I am going to do. I really want to be with you so much, in your arms again, feel your warm hands, kiss your beautiful lips and just hold you for all eternity. My love every member of my family insists I go see a doctor but I tell them that my name is in the Book of Life along with my date of death and what will be, will be, whether I see a doctor or not. I truly feel that to be the truth. I trust in God and He will do what is best for me. Only He knows how sad I am all the time and how I hurt for you and to be with you. He sees me crying every night as I say my prayers. I am lost without you, you were my everything. Our songs mean so much to me. I love you, happy 5th month anniversary in Heaven my love. Please talk to me in my dreams tonight and tell me what I should do and as always I will listen to you because you are so intelligent which I realized when I first met you. Handsome, intelligent, loving, best friend, my whole world, my husband, my soul mate, I love you. Lovingly, Anita